So why is it so hard for me to look at myself in the same way? I try so hard, and I've not been able to think that in quite a while. I suppose due to the way I've been depressed, and bored, my mind is stuck on subjects that wont let me just rest. *sigh*
"People will love you for who you are, don't change into another person to fit someone else's wishes, because then you wont be happy."
Yet, I am having trouble believing that anyone would fall for me now. Sure people did before, but the older you get, the higher are people's standards, and I feel I simply do not live up to anyone's standards at the age I am.
"You're beautiful" "You're a nice person" "You're awesome"
Well, for the first one, I don't know what to think. I've never really heard this from anyone except my parents. And even if it's true, what's it done for me? pfft.
For the second, I have found it hard to believe, because I keep ending up hurting people despite my best efforts to not do as such. I wish I knew how some people pull of being so nice...
For the third, again, I have to say, it doesn't really get me anywhere. Yay, I am supposedly awesome.
Awkward to talk to sometimes.
Not very interesting.
Difficult to have deep conversations with.