Sunday, February 28, 2010

Ever get the feeling...

Man, when looking at the world, do you get the feeling that things really are as nuts as some people make it out to be?

I was reading some conspiracy theories on things. (I know, I know, I was wiki-jumping.)

It makes you wonder, how this modern world is really run sometimes.

If it is close to what we as a public sees, or if there's a lot more behind the curtain...

/I was gonna write more, but I was distracted, will probably write more later.

So I'm curious...

In the situation where there are people around you pretty much 90%+ of the time, and they are in groups... Well, what is the best solution to this:

I end up feeling shitty, and I am in a crowd of happy people playing games or talking. Do I try to talk to one, and possibly make them awkward, or bring their mood down? Do I try to talk to the group? Or do I just grin and bear it?

I've been going with the later, as I do hate brining the mood down. I really like seeing people happy, and it hurts me so much to make others unhappy.

So what _is_ the solution?

I think I need to change

Okay, so seriously, it's been half of forever since I wrote anything blog like, and half again forever to the third power since I wrote one I shared with anyone/and or even saved.

I am doing.. I would say well, but to be honest, I don't even fully know.

Backstory: I had been feeling pretty down about being single, that's normal, I however use any negative feelings as a gateway drug to start thinking of much more negative things, so I was basically caught in the in ditch of depressed thoughts that my mind creates.

Then I get a revelation, while I had thought about it before, it didn't click exactly until then though. I need to change, as much as I hate it... I know, I don't like trying new things, I am unbelievably shy in some ways, this included. I know I can do it, and I don't want anyone to push me, but I am having trouble testing the waters myself.

I think the realization came the same day as something else. That day, I felt really awful mentally, then I started to feel sick physically, and learned that someone that I was starting to crush on was going out with someone. All in all, probably not the best day.

So, yes, I know I need to change, it's just stepping that's the issue. :P

/rant rant /blog blog

Medium standards wins.

If you have high standards, nothing is ever your way, and you are never happy.
If you have low standards, you don't make it anywhere, and are generally unhappy.

I suppose that's life.

More blogs, goddamnit

I don't know why, but I keep creating blogs with specific perposes, meaning I have what, 3 gaming blogs or something? Pfft.

Well, this is personal and unpersonal. My blog, for whatever reason, to dump quotes, pictures, and personal rants.

Also, for dishing out hate at non-people. :)