So now that it's over, I felt like it went pretty well.
I was really worried about, in the situation, starting a fight, being really stuck up, feeling depressed in the corner, being mean, ect.
Now, I finally ask someone, and I found out that while, no, I didn't do any of those really.. I unintentionally wasn't very nice to someone.
The road splits here.
I feel like I should be good about, while not being perfect, having tried my best, and knowing that I couldn't have done any better.
But on the other side, I feel like I shouldn't be able to have those feelings when it's another person's mind/mood/feelings we are talking about.
And without even taking the time to decide I feel that my insides are starting the wheels turning that will lead me to the other side.
When this happens, I start to feel like "Well, do you really have the RIGHT to think that you could walk away and not feel guilty? Do you think it's fair?"
And while I can make points about how "It was unintentional. If I had known, I wouldn't have acted that way. I did my best, and it's over with now, in the future, I can know what to do differently." But these fall on deaf internal ears, as internal faces just sigh, and look down, and face away.
I don't know what to feel.
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